Excerpt for Josh's email ApriI 29, 2013: I have been thinking a lot lately, and have kind of realized throughout my life I really don't know what I've been doing.  I have just been going through the motions of life. It's kind of weird. Now that I am out here I have learned so much about myself that I didn't know before. It's kind of scary. It's weird to think about. i don't think I understood quite fully how important the gospel is  and how real it is. It's not something we are to just do. It is something we are supposed to live. Something that we have t do in our own hearts. It does us no good if we are just going to church and doing the things we are asked or told to do, we have to want to do those things. I can't wait for the day that I can come home and apply these things in my everyday normal life. I am so very grateful that I am here. It was a hard and still is a hard road to get to where I am and the road hasn't ended yet. We have to continue in doing good and living the gospel to truly succeed. Life is all about self -mastery and overcoming the natural man and the influence of the adversary. I really liked the talk in conference that talked about the tools that Satan will use against us. He uses the one thing that he doesn't have to literally destroy us. It is crazy!! Satan can't destroy us only we can. We have to continually do good in all things in action and thought and in our hearts so we can overcome and conquer all things. Life is not easy  and it never will be. We just need to do the best that we can. We need to live the gospel. We also need to warn our brothers and sisters of the danger. Like it says in D&C 88:81 I believe. I am so grateful that I made it here. I hope I can continue in the things I have learned here on my mission for the rest of my life. I hope I can continually have opportunities to share it with others so they can have the same blessings that we have here in this life and in the life after. I am so very grateful for the gospel in my life and for this opportunity I have to be set apart from the world to take time away to open my eyes more fully to see the truthfulness of the gospel. I love you all so much! :)